Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Oh, and I have a job!! :)

A real life, adult, job teaching math to teenagers.

Typing that is overwhelming.

My job is here. And I could not be happier!

Yes Please: brick kitchen, or brick anything

this is the best kitchen I have ever seen. I LOVE it.

Monday, January 24, 2011

Yes Please: Painted Subflooring

This is so cool. What a fun and CHEAP option for just about any room :] My mind is racing with ideas...

if only we had a house...

Friday, January 21, 2011

Oh. My. Word.

I am off to present my plan to make this exact thing to Isaac the second I finish typing this.

From here

I am so excited.

Sunday, January 16, 2011

I am forever learning.

Well, duh. Haha, but it is very true. So up until about a week ago I had our life figured out. I mean really figured out. Well at least the next 10 years or so, no biggie. Hm. I am dumb. So dumb.

Literally the day after God sent me into unfamiliar territories subbing in a "scary" high school I am presented with the opportunity (and about 1 hour to prepare myself) to sit down with a few administrators from the district in regards to a few math positions that were opening up IN THE MIDDLE OF THE YEAR at a few unknown schools.. how does this happen?? :] It's like God gave me a glimpse of confidence so that I would say "maybe I can do this" and then he provides me with a REAL LIFE possible opportunity to actually DO IT. I was FREAKING out; super shocked, nervous, excited, and about a million other emotions all at once. The "conversation" went really really well and I am checking out a few schools next week and I cannot wait! {I will tell more about the schools and experiences after I actually see where this goes and how it all plays out}

BUT... this was not my planned life. Working at these schools did not fit into THE PLAN.

THE PLAN was not the original plan. It wasn't even the second plan. But it really felt like God's plan for our life. We felt like it was all swinging together in one full circle cycle, and this new opportunity threw us for a loop. We are currently YL leaders, living and {I was} attempting to work within this particular community, also volunteering and getting involved in multiple organizations/programs all circulating around this particular community, and it all felt right. We love building with and working in communities. We love investing and giving to the community in which we live. This new possibility {at least at this point} doesn't feel very close to "our community".

I talked and prayed with friends and family and sought advice from mentors. I prayed {and am still praying, and would love help} bold prayers for God to close doors and help me to see His clear intentions and we will see how next week goes. At this point I feel at peace with things either way. But this is really a lot more up in the air than I am used to feeling.

I don't know why I think I have the right to sit and plan out my fantasy life for hours on end; like my plan could be anything close to His plan. I know God will lead us to a life better than anything we could dream up, so why do I even try to plan ahead for so much that just is not necessary. Being prepared and thinking ahead is one thing, planning to the details and exact timing that I feel at times I just must do is very very... dumb.

My bff Megan sent this to me the other day from her devotional, and I have been reading it to myself over and over:

" Much much stress resuts from your wanting to make things happen before their times have come. One of the main ways I assert My sovereignty is in the timing of events. If you want to stay close to Me and do things My way, ask Me to show you the path forward moment by moment. Instead of dashing headlong towards your goal, let Me set the pace. Slow down, and enjoy the journey in My Presence."

and then this one from another day:

"Let me prepare you for the day that stretches out before you. I know exactly what this day will contain, whereas you will have only vague ideas about it. You would like to see a map, showing all the twists and turns of your journey. You'd feel more prepared if you could somehow visualize what is on the road ahead. However, there is a better way to be prepared for whatever you will encounter today: Spend quality time with Me. I will not show you what is on the road ahead, but I will thoroughly equip you for the journey. My living Presence is your Companion each step of the way. Stay in continual communication with Me, whispering My name whenever you need to redirect your thoughts. Thus, you can walk through this day with your focus on Me. My abiding Presence is the best road map available."

One day at a time and I will be more aware and aligned with the best plan possible: His plan.

Monday, January 10, 2011

today was a good day.

today i was scared/nervous/being a baby.

i took my first real sub job and i knew it would come and that i would never be ready but i took it.

first of all, i was pretty sure subbing was NOT going to be for me because i am not the kind of person who feels good about showing up somewhere to teach without a PLAN.

second, i look a 17 year old. who the heck is going to listen to me when i look the same age, if not older, than them. even when i try to dress older, i still look young.

third, i am that kid. the kid that spent high school pretty comfortable, and didn't really leave the comfort zone at all for college, etc.

today i went to a "scary school". i knew i would sub at schools i hadn't been to or was scared of in school, but i thought i would get the opportunity to ease into these schools... maybe start with a more familiar school? or at least a middle school? but no. i get called for a "scary" HIGH school.

it was a call for only three hours of subbing in a math class... so I took it.

as i drove up to the school, my stomach got sick.

when i got to the office the office administrator was walky-talkying the security guard to escort a boy out of PE who had his friends lift him up so he could "show is b-o-t-t-o-m" to the neighboring class in PE. yup, i was really here and this totally made me feel better not.

then i went to the class.

it was so fun. i really love subbing and high school students and math and meeting DIFFERENT types of students and i can't wait to go back! yeaaaaah!

today was a good day.

and that's the truth.

My dresser broke...

When I moved out of the dorms sophomore year of college my lovely mother treated me to a new bedroom set from Ikea. I was so excited (I had been using hand-me-downs from the neighbor in my home bedroom for the past 8+ years). We went with this set (the bed small drawers and three drawer dresser). I think some of them are different or discontinued... no wonder because... they are super crappy. Like really super duper crappy. My dresser broke sophomore year, but this time is is REALLY broken. As in, only one of the drawers has a partial base.

I was bummed because I knew one drawer broke, and because I was trying to finally clean up my vanity area... but no. I couldn't clean up because I have nothing to put my stuff away in.

Now I unfortunately {that was for Isaac} need to find a new dresser, and this makes me very excited! I will be looking for something free, or very close to free, and painting/fixing up :] I am SO READY for a new project!

We have basically decorated our whole home... so this will give me something to do for a few days/weeks! Can't wait!

Thursday, January 6, 2011

project to try :]

I would like to try to make this when I get a chance :]


Monday, January 3, 2011

I know it is so stereotypical but...

I really really want to make some sort of bucket list. I have been thinking lately {who am I kidding, I am always thinking about these sort of things} a lot about the future... I have probably talked Isaac's ear off for the past 7+ years about the future. I am CONSTANTLY a year or M.O.R.E ahead of myself. I think to myself all the time about how I need to be enjoying the moments I am living and taking in every minute of this particular time in our lives because we are only going to be newlyweds living in the downstairs of my parents house with our one perfect dog with little to no income eating nachos and paninis four or more nights a week {Isaac is totally going to cringe at this run on sentence} where ALL of our furniture is hand-me-downs, free, or craigslisted and we don't own our car {yes, singular} pay many {or any!} real bills ONCE in our lives. And it's not that I am not happy. I am so happy, and grateful, and flat out in love with my life. In fact, I think the "problem" is that I am so everything that I just can't wait to see what's coming next. HM. is this still a "bucket list" post? haha...

I guess this means for now, despite all of the great things I just cannot wait to do and watch unfold within our lives, a bucket list is not happening.


and that's the truth.